Damn, you really are a clueless farken clown, arent yah mate? See, Zed10R definately knows what going on. There is a little thing called self-expression that I would not silence for anything in the world - all the pussy, all the money, fvck it. If it costs my personality, my soul, who I am and what I believe then it simply isnt worth it. We're after expression. We're after artistic satisfaction. We're after self actualisation. It's a little something called art, which has died long, long ago in Western culture. I know, you're going to sit there and protest 'metal isnt art!' - wrong; that metal youre referring to isnt art. There are those bands out there, and no they dont pose, they dont wear makeup, and they dont play over the top wanker solos. They express themselves devoid of egos. They pour their souls out. You mightnt really understand what its like to have a passion that drives your life. I mean, you do live in America, where every single act is about how others perceive you, how good you look in front of the cameras and all that other sad, sad b/s. I have to say, it takes a real man to live in that society and realise whats really going on. I'm glad I have met and spoken with so many Americans that dont act like the sad materialist, self concious, deluded, self obsessed wankers most seppos are. Maybe you fall into the former category? The point is, if you dont feel it or understand it you never will. And mate, from the way you're talking, from the way your priorities are lining up - I dont think youve got a hope in hell.