I know this must be a dumb question to ask. It really seemed so on a re-read of what I wrote. It is just, sometimes you kind of sit there and wonder if you will ever make it the way you want to, or become the next big berger king worker. I know muffin cake was stupid, and I wrote it to be. It is just, sometimes, I like just wonder. You know? I do this for fun, and if I can help it, I will never stop. It is just, I look for others approval of my stuff for some reason. It is just something I search for. I am very shy about playing or singing stuff for people, because I am afraid of what they might think. That is all this question was about. Would people like me? That's what I was going for. and BTW, I didn't write signal, or three. The others are mine though.
Look at the above text and you will find the word "just" five times.
I mention this only because you seem to be looking for "just"ification.
You are justified pursuing an art form whether or not you are particularly good at it. I think you are good at it, but so what?
A lot of us are in the same boat. Sure, my wife and son and friends think that I write good stuff and can perform well, even though I'm retired from performing, but does that mean other people like my music?
Therein is the question of "validation" not "justification." Sure I am justified, Tiny Tim was justified. Paris Hilton is justified. Are they valid? Who knows?
If you measure validation by financial success, you may not be justified.
Van Gogh died poor bleeding in his bed and lived a miserable existence. His paintings are the most valuable works of art in the world. Any one of them is worth over 50 million, some of them 200. Was he justified? You bet.
Was he validated? I'd say yes, but if you asked him, he'd go to Guiguin in France and say, "Paul, do I have talent?"
I'd say, write because you can't help it, you can't not write. If you can not write then I don't think that you need to.
Ever wonder about the singularity? Why are you you. Why aren't you someone else. What are the odds that you would be created as an individual with a singular point of view and look out of YOUR eyes? Very small, I'd say.
It's probably more accurate to say that we are all looking out of His eyes.
That's what makes us justified by our birthright. What makes you validated is a pretty subjective thing. Thus, the singularity.
I am valid. Every day I wake up and write something from nothing. I create. Or do I? Perhaps I only channel some other creator's work.
It doesn't matter to me. I am valid because I do it. Not because it's great. We all know what great is. It's Jessica Simpson or Spears or Hilton or the flavor of the month. It's some French vanilla cowboy who couldn't tell one end of a horse from another. It's whatever the machine is pushing, that is what's great.
You want to be great? Good luck. You want to be justified? You are.
You want to be validated? Go to an open mic and sing a song. If one person claps, you are.
You want to be rich? Your best bet is not to be an artist, but a thief instead.
Hope that helps.
