TAE
All you have is now
At 68 I am definitely getting to closer to the last chapters or chapter of my life here. Having come way too close to checking out with the skin cancer crap a few years back I'm waking up every day with a huge WOO HOO I get another day! Then taking a moment to thank God and the cosmos for the bounty of family, friends and crazy cool gifts and opportunities I have for some reason been blessed with. Then hitting my knees for a moment and in humble gratitude asking to be empowered to be the best I can be at serving my purpose and accomplishing what ever it is I am supposed to accomplish with this extra time I have been allotted. Open my eyes and my mind, soften my heart and lead me to where you need me. Then I go about my day chasing my tail with a never ending amount of rabbit holes I go down most every day. Shit doesn't just happen, we make it happen. Every day we have the choice to sit on the sidelines and watch it get made or make some ourselves. If you're just waiting for shit to happen it will but it isn't your shit and it can get pretty boring. My advice is get out there and make shit happen, it's a hoot while you're doing it and it's fun looking back at that big ol pile of shit that is the sum of what we have accomplished in this life. And away we go!What am I up to? Abso-fucking-lutely nothing.
I feel like I'm in an old folks home, sitting around waiting to die. And it's not coming anytime soon. At least not soon enough.
It's like that last line in Paradise By The Dashboard Light - "I'm just prayin' for the end of time, that's all that I can do."