unfortunately, those years, i think, mostly was a waste of time. i did not have a good teacher. i was playing without any creative thinking and wondering where is the problem. why it does not sound. why it sounds like a notes without direction, strong idea and stamina. i was thinking why other guys strum 3 notes and they sound. sound like music. i used to strum hundreds of notes, but none of them were ready to be called - music. then i started to think before i play, to create ideas first and then try to lay them down on my fingerboard. it gave me a direction for my music, intended movement, i always sing my ideas out, not necessary loud. and i felt that it gives a value to what i play now. like bb kind said: "always sing what u play. thats why i often look like im eating a lemon".
there is much to learn and find.