Roses Broken Soil...
Dead looks mascarading my face all the time.
Pains shattering my structure as I express feelings through this rhyme.
Never images of happiness am I able to embrace.
Always tarnished feelings breaking out in my face.
I want to look happy and be happy,
but thats only something I could act.
It's too hard, too frustrating, it's something I definetly lack.
Its too tiring, too exhausting, I cant do it all.
I can't smile or laugh at myself if I ever dropped to a fall.
I crawl...through my insides hoping to find
a light...as I cry I think of broken knowlegde
trapped in my own problems
and no one is around to solve em.
I'm running from the world.
I'm falling into my problems...into my troubles...into more turmoil.
Trying to put myself together again like a roses broken soil.
A face once so bright it would light up the room.
Now a face so dark you cant even tell I'm there.
I stare...into the depths of my mind.
I begin to get lost unable to find
myself...I think I just need some help.
A breakdown is occuring inside of me.
A breakdown is spreading throughout my body.
Slowly my system is shutting me down.
Slowly my mind is leaving me to a lonely death on the ground.
I'm holding on to every single breath I can breathe.
Retaining everything I'd ever need
in life...as I imagine slitting my wrist with this knife,
blood drips from my arm unto the floor.
And my body cries for MORE...pain.
More dark nights and more rain.
I started off so innocent and sweet,
ending my life incompetant and beat.
You think...why does he have such a negative outlook on life?
Well then I tell you why shouldn't I have one?
Have you ever been through what I've been through?
Have you ever seen what I've seen?
Have you ever done what I've done?
NO...your words to me have no meaning.
Your trying to help but its all too demeaning.
I thought I needed you but in the end I didn't.
My hearts been screaming for you but returned feelings were forbidden.
Prohibited...Foreboding...Taboo.
My sorrow was left on a platter for you.
Exhibited...Exploding...in proportion to
the loneliness I sustained
for years I refrained from explaining how I felt.
for years I subdued the turmoil I got from you.
Nevermore can I bare it.
I'm pushing all the weight off my shoulders.
I'm too young to hold them weighing me down like boulders.
I don't need you anymore.
I don't want you anymore.
All I need is myself.
All I want is myself.
And all I will ever have is myself,
with my dead looks,
my dead voice,
my troubles,
and my turmoil...
still on my own putting myself together again like a roses broken soil...
-Brandon Peterson
Dead looks mascarading my face all the time.
Pains shattering my structure as I express feelings through this rhyme.
Never images of happiness am I able to embrace.
Always tarnished feelings breaking out in my face.
I want to look happy and be happy,
but thats only something I could act.
It's too hard, too frustrating, it's something I definetly lack.
Its too tiring, too exhausting, I cant do it all.
I can't smile or laugh at myself if I ever dropped to a fall.
I crawl...through my insides hoping to find
a light...as I cry I think of broken knowlegde
trapped in my own problems
and no one is around to solve em.
I'm running from the world.
I'm falling into my problems...into my troubles...into more turmoil.
Trying to put myself together again like a roses broken soil.
A face once so bright it would light up the room.
Now a face so dark you cant even tell I'm there.
I stare...into the depths of my mind.
I begin to get lost unable to find
myself...I think I just need some help.
A breakdown is occuring inside of me.
A breakdown is spreading throughout my body.
Slowly my system is shutting me down.
Slowly my mind is leaving me to a lonely death on the ground.
I'm holding on to every single breath I can breathe.
Retaining everything I'd ever need
in life...as I imagine slitting my wrist with this knife,
blood drips from my arm unto the floor.
And my body cries for MORE...pain.
More dark nights and more rain.
I started off so innocent and sweet,
ending my life incompetant and beat.
You think...why does he have such a negative outlook on life?
Well then I tell you why shouldn't I have one?
Have you ever been through what I've been through?
Have you ever seen what I've seen?
Have you ever done what I've done?
NO...your words to me have no meaning.
Your trying to help but its all too demeaning.
I thought I needed you but in the end I didn't.
My hearts been screaming for you but returned feelings were forbidden.
Prohibited...Foreboding...Taboo.
My sorrow was left on a platter for you.
Exhibited...Exploding...in proportion to
the loneliness I sustained
for years I refrained from explaining how I felt.
for years I subdued the turmoil I got from you.
Nevermore can I bare it.
I'm pushing all the weight off my shoulders.
I'm too young to hold them weighing me down like boulders.
I don't need you anymore.
I don't want you anymore.
All I need is myself.
All I want is myself.
And all I will ever have is myself,
with my dead looks,
my dead voice,
my troubles,
and my turmoil...
still on my own putting myself together again like a roses broken soil...
-Brandon Peterson