Thank you so much.
Our teacher was a classical teacher, she only listened to classical music and preferred students being into classical music as well.
Apart from that: it was the type of school where you got in and some teachers liked you and whatever you did, it was great. And other teachers didn't like you and no matter what you matter, it was never good enough.
A theatre school looks good on your resume, but I'm sure if I wouldn't have had my education there, then I would have been much more selfconfident at 17.
Another ( stupid) thing was that when I was a teenager lots of TV talent shows came up. People of my age group told me: why don't you audition? But my only concern was: imagine I lose in the first round and the whole nation has seen it and it will be forever on youtube BUT most artists I like have never been on that type of shows. Wasn't great for my confidence either. I'm a lyricist as well. I'll post some on the forum later on.
Right before graduating, my teacher left a note on my school-report that she wouldn't recommend me pursuing a singing career. Some other students had a good voice as well, but they still needed to work on it a lot, but that teacher just praised them as if they were God.
Right after my final performance ( in front of a 1000 people) she said: congrats that you dared to sing with zero talent.
PS: I'm already 33, I was around 30 in the videos. I don't have this dream like: I want to be part of "one direction" or winning "the voice", I want to make good songs, perform as much as I can, share music, ..... I've just explained why I wasn't selfconfident for all these years.