you can't go back. don't try. it amounts to regret, whcih is not making use of the maturity and knowledge you have gained since it "flowed."
everyone gets disoriented in a new place. if you take it as loss, then that's what it will be. maybe the universe is directing you on a new path - not necessarily away from creating music, but maybe a detour to see some things you need to see...
life is long. at 19, i figured life was all downhill once youth was gone. now, i feel like i have everything to look forward to as i age. there is plenty of time.
enjoy each day as a way to make it all come true sooner or later, because it may be later, and either way or if you die tomorrow you will enjoy each day.
everyone gets disoriented in a new place. if you take it as loss, then that's what it will be. maybe the universe is directing you on a new path - not necessarily away from creating music, but maybe a detour to see some things you need to see...
life is long. at 19, i figured life was all downhill once youth was gone. now, i feel like i have everything to look forward to as i age. there is plenty of time.
enjoy each day as a way to make it all come true sooner or later, because it may be later, and either way or if you die tomorrow you will enjoy each day.