Sam, I'm gonna throw something out there--you can follow or ignore. Here's what I think.
You either have to get a record deal or get into music for film--one of the two. You should be making a living from your work. You have a unique and dark vision, which is very cinematic in nature. Also, very unique. Valuable because it is rare.
I would like to see you hook up with some NY film people and blow their minds with what you can do. You have a--shit I hate to use the word, but for lack of a better one--certain genius in your production. Your music deserves better than being an internet phenomenon on a BBS.
I'd also like to see a CD. Whatever moves you, I guess. I just think you are that special. I don't know what you do for a living, but music is what you should be doing. My opinion, OK?