_brian_
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i didn't know where else i could post this, but what the hell
when i was younger i did play live a few times, each time i was scared though, but i'm of the opinion it perhaps would have gotten easier the more i did it. the band members i had were not the type to work hard though so i liquidated the band.
not long after i suffered a nervous breakdown, i suffered severe panic attacks and became agoraphobic.
now, i have talent, i can play around 5 instruments, i write and record everything myself, and the people who hear my stuff always say things like - i thought you were good, but i wasn't expecting that, or you should send that into a record label.
but now at this moment in time i know i wouldn't be able to even play live. it's all i want to do - play my stuff live and tour with the hope of getting a contract, but i feel so overwhelmed - almost like i've been given a disability of some kind. i dont suffer the panic attacks, but i'm on the edge of them sometimes, i have learnt to control them better.
i have to drink a lot even to do karaoke now, even then it seems too much for me. all i want to do is sing and play my own stuff with a backing band of 3, i have the talent, and am sure if i really worked at my instrument and singing ability i would be more than passable.
but, is there no way back now? has anyone had any experiance with this that can give me some advice or help?
many thanks
when i was younger i did play live a few times, each time i was scared though, but i'm of the opinion it perhaps would have gotten easier the more i did it. the band members i had were not the type to work hard though so i liquidated the band.
not long after i suffered a nervous breakdown, i suffered severe panic attacks and became agoraphobic.
now, i have talent, i can play around 5 instruments, i write and record everything myself, and the people who hear my stuff always say things like - i thought you were good, but i wasn't expecting that, or you should send that into a record label.
but now at this moment in time i know i wouldn't be able to even play live. it's all i want to do - play my stuff live and tour with the hope of getting a contract, but i feel so overwhelmed - almost like i've been given a disability of some kind. i dont suffer the panic attacks, but i'm on the edge of them sometimes, i have learnt to control them better.
i have to drink a lot even to do karaoke now, even then it seems too much for me. all i want to do is sing and play my own stuff with a backing band of 3, i have the talent, and am sure if i really worked at my instrument and singing ability i would be more than passable.
but, is there no way back now? has anyone had any experiance with this that can give me some advice or help?
many thanks