Nobody gives a damn who any of us are,...
except maybe each other. Hearing yourself sing over your own speakers is worth whatever it costs. Having your friends, and maybe sometimes strangers, hear you singing over speakers is worth what it costs.
Most people into home recording will never be "stars", never record a "hit" record, never sell a song, or maybe never be heard outside their own small circle of friends. The internet is changing that, somewhat, and there are exceptions to every rule, as well as legitimate "pros" who hang on these boards, occasionally, but my point remains the same.
It's a worthwhile creative hobby for most people on these boards, and it's worth the cost. If you're hung up on the cost/return aspect of home recording, I think you're in the wrong hobby.
If my analog Portastudio was broken, I'd have it fixed, or if it was simply worn out, I'd replace it with another analog Portastudio. Most people have never heard me, except a fairly small circle of family & heads on this board, and it was worth the cost to put my stuff in their hands. That's just me, though.
Offered as words of encouragement. Hang in there, & all that.